Did my first session this morning. An experimental gift given to me by the Vancouver Hypnotherapy Clinic via my doctor. T’was an intriguing experience. It was relaxing and challenging, because it is challenging for me to relax. I am almost never at ease, so it takes some doing.
But. I can learn. And unlearn.
I look forward to re-programming my brain, so every little item in my life isn’t a trigger.
I look forward to a day when my body and brain and all bits of myself co-operate for the common good.
A place where buttons aren’t so easily pushed, where I am not triggered readily by things that seem so random. And then I don’t know what is happening to me.
I look forward to getting at that subconscious and getting those positive messages about me in there, so they’ll stick, and they’ll become my default, because on the conscious level, it’s a battle. All of that good self-talk has made very little difference when deeper inside, the truth feels like “You’re bad. And all the bad stuff that has ever happened to you is because you’re bad. And that’s what you deserve now and always will” That message has been in there for almost all of the years of my life. And in times of trouble, that is mostly what I am aware of, no matter how much I may tell myself differently.
This is a new approach. A new location.