Sailing Off Grid (Update from the In Between Spaces)

(My computer seems to be possessed and has been since Monday. I cannot upload photos. Ditto for video. Oh well! Another time)

The roll in, the swerve out of sight; there is everything on offer. I have appeared and disappeared, begun to feel seen and dropped down invisible again.  I’m caught between where I was and who was there with me and a future space I cannot know.

There is always change on the horizon, and in my mind, I can logically understand the need to dismantle, the inevitability to the leaving and the leaving and the leaving, but the left behinds still feel weighty. I cannot chase after the simplest acts of kindness; they are whistling through the windows and flitting well beyond my view. They are moving on to do their goodness elsewhere.

I am not ungrateful for all and everything and everyone I have known; I only wish something would stick in place. Though I knew how many friends I would lose this year to moving, this last round is going to be the most heart breaking. The dwindling down is about to make the final thud. Sometimes I wonder why I’ve stayed in this city. I cannot go now; not with all that’s percolating.

It’s another new chapter, another village blown to smithereens to tidy; build up from the rubble the life so far unseen. There is too much to know, to do, to understand. The first thing to do; let go of the wheel and let the rudderless boat drag me off to wherever it may travel.

Say good-bye to the last of the stronghold, with every intention and knowledge that meeting again is well and possible. I will cry much, but I will be glad.

I will carry with me the time and love well spent.

 

Advertisements

About nala7299

Greetings Feline and Fellow Earthlings! In the interest in "brevity" I will attempt to summarize via lists. I AM, this is me, here we go, weee: writer, reader, lover of music, dance, theatre, animals, oddities, 2nd hand trolling through alleys and le boutigues of sally ann and value village, and the beautiful outdoorsy nature of my home. Big breath, leap #2: a veggie head, enviro eco freak, chocolateasaurus, transformer more than meets the eye, former ESL teacher, a happy auntie of Nicholas and Sam, my 2 sweetie pie nephews. Leap #3...welcome to me! Enough said, read my blog:)
This entry was posted in All You Need is Love, Love. Bookmark the permalink.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s