As the day lies still into the night, I am lying here on my bed thinking about what it means to be well. It is a timely thought, as I am feeling its opposite right now. Plans were cancelled; I am not as fond of being buckled over, nauseated at public gatherings as it might seem:)
I will need to be bold and patient, with all that I want to pursue, change, and grow into. And I need to be kind to my body, when it is in pain, as it is now. I am grateful that the worst of it did not come about this a.m. I will continue to eat well, and I will celebrate my little victory on the dance floor this morning.
I woke up feeling rather ugh, and did my best to convince myself that I should skip my first Zumba class this morning. It took much poking, prodding, and the downing of Advil to push past what I felt and go out the door to what I wanted and needed.
The class was incredibly fun, challenging, and uplifting. I was able to lose myself, at times, in the feeling of movement, the presence of joy, and the drowning in sweat droplets gleefully covering every inch of my body. I got caught a few times, particularly at the end when I was losing steam, in focusing more than was helpful, on the steps I was missing. That can truly take you out of moment bliss.
I will most definitely be going back to the class. Next weekend, I shall be holed up somewhere, writing my novel (eeks) for that 3 day contest, so I will be unable to partake from the glass of human movement. I look forward to the future of spins, shimmies, and samba steps.
For now, I will appreciate again, all of the blessed bounty that presents itself before me on the table, in moments of vigor, and in its opposite; when I do not feel good. I appreciate what I see, feel, and learn from illness and body difficulties. I have learned perseverance, which has helped me be a fighter; I have learned patience, which has helped me let things pass in their time; I have learned gentleness, which has helped me be compassionate to other people. I will turn this gentle attention to myself right now, and end this post.
Thank-you, as always, to the universe, for showing the truth in its glorious glimpses…that we are one, and our unity within ourselves, is reflected in our bodies, our words, our communities.